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Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
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[Mar. 8th, 2006|10:40 pm] |
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bang........ and so it begins |
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| wow |
[Dec. 16th, 2005|02:00 pm] |
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| |  disappointed | ] |
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| | adam song | ] |
so xmas shopping this year isnt really stressfull iono i just kinda get w.e i first see or catches my eye for that person lately ive been remeniscing alot of older times its weird seeing how trends change and i have a younger sis who is in middle school about to be a frosh and how she is subjected to them im not saying i wasnt it just the new trends r so annoying everything seems played out i kinda wished i was born in early 80s so i could have gone to high school in the 90s i mean i hear ppl saying all the time how great the 80s was well fuck the 80s i love early 90s even to late 90s stuff i mean the music the attitude and everything i feel i best fit in that time era these feeligns were kinda inspired by listening to music and it makes me think to now how each decade has its music fads and such and well i cant quite pinpoint todays fad but i really like 90s alternative and music because they really incorporated music now its just like all formulaic and done exactly for the money with beats that are made entirely by machine and songs that have the same lyrics/chorus/harmony it all seems played out and makes me think life is played out as well i guess ill just go back to listening to some old blink |
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| I NEED YOU!!!!!!(to help me) |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|01:41 am] |
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| | Peter Tosh | ] |
i am making a laid back (chill) playlist and i want your input please pick a few songs which you feel ought to be in there ^_^ your help is deeply appreciated |
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| it is written and i must do it lol |
[Sep. 6th, 2005|01:54 am] |
1) Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2) I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3) I'll pick a flavor/color of jello to wrestle with you in. (Maybe.)
4) I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5) I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6) I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7) I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8) If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written! |
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| 2 in the pocket is better then 3 |
[Sep. 2nd, 2005|01:49 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | Louis XIV - illegal tender | ] |
man its been ages since i even looked at this thing well im going to gmont college ^_^ Tuesdays and thursdays which isnt bad lota ppl leaving for college so it seems i feel really detached since high school ended its so weird like i dont even talk to most ppl anymore so what has everyone been up to? lol please let me know (comment)! more updates to come hopefully |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 11th, 2005|01:59 am] |
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| | my chemical romance - cemetery drive | ] |
wow havent updated this thing in such a long time lmao but lets see nothing much happening a rave is coming up "nocturnal wonderland" on sep 03 bring big 35,000 ppl ^_^ but also a local venue on friday college area so fo shizzy ummm having a predictament wit some friends iono y but i need to have a talk wit one of them ya but today i felt very ditched so sorry i didnt answer my fone but wat was done was a big turn off to answer that fone =/ anyways hopefully everyone is good lol and i look forward to going to gmont this fall if anyone going there drop a message ^_^ |
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| things ^_^ |
[Feb. 27th, 2005|12:15 am] |
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| | creative | ] |
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| | Beethoven - 7th symphonie | ] |
so i went to do lots of things but no time i really wana go shopping for clothes i wana re do my room and get a nice incense box .... and i wana go to le stats and watch more comics ooo and go to the beach some more sunset cliffs is pretty and also the hookah bar its very nice there o well maybe i should just do all those things for the hell of it ^_^ anyone busy tomorrow? lol peace out |
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| dont worry ^_^ |
[Feb. 22nd, 2005|12:17 am] |
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| | bob marley - everything is gona be allright | ] |
well i got the coolest fucking gifts for valentines day i mean japanese incents ^_^_^_^ yummy and a henna kit o and smoe other stuff that i've always wanted and got ty for my baby very nifty though hehe besides that i wana go to mexico next weekend
and planning out spring break wo0T! road trip anyone who wants to come just tell me im planing few days in mexico liek the beaches then la for a day and the rest in san fran ^_^ HAIGHT AND ASHBURY man i wish i could be there now peace out |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 15th, 2005|12:15 am] |
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| |  cranky | ] |
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| | postal service - this place is a prison | ] |
i need money =( that would make me happy ^_^ < me happy
lately everything doesnt feel right im not whining or anything but its like all getting repetative hmmm maybe its just the damn rain o well ppl also have not been the most pleasent as well o well wat can u do but dust off ur shoulder ^ ^ |
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[Feb. 5th, 2005|12:07 am] |
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| | saosin- hopeless believing | ] |
cool fucking friday!!! ^_^
me,samantha, mario, danny, anthony, erica, joe, and jlee all went to a hookah bar for like 2+ hours and had like 3 hookahs it was tight then we went to belmont park for some fun in the sand but before while at the 7-11 at the ghetto we found some really cool black guys who started to talk to us we must have talked for like 30 minutes with one guy and he was talking about being a surfer and riding the wave which was really random also meet some ppl at the beach lol drunks O! and some ppl were having sex at the beach like OMG! lol the stars were out it was beautiful i loved it ^_^ i also got like 3 comments on my necklace lol it made me feel good that someone understood wat it was about and y it was made good feeling of acceptance well now im home nice and dandy drinking sobe ^_^ and thats my update peace out |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|05:24 pm] |
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| | indifferent | ] |
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| | jimi hendrix and janis joplin - summertime | ] |
in this short period of time ive grown fond of janis joplin and grateful dead i mean why the hell not they r soo wats the word... inspirational? new fav. song is jimi hendrix and janis jopling - summertime check it out ^_^ another good thing is that home and soul opened like 3 minutes from my house *gasp* i love that store and i dont have to go all the way out to el cajon anymore to get that good mystic healing lol anyways heres to a good time cause thats the only time i feel |
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| post dos |
[Jan. 26th, 2005|12:53 am] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | Modest Mouse - The World At Large | ] |
so i took a stab at drawing yesterday so if i were to mephorically rate it would be like a very deep stab that gets stuck in like veins and makes everything all bloody lol aka they arent good i didnt get too good feedback either o well i just had to do it
about the whole religion thing i think i can narrow it down
All gods exist, and i choose to believe in them all, i do not worship for that is a form of idolizing. I dont believe anyone should be so idolized and saught after but yet be portrayed as distant and all powerfull. Thus i believe that you are your own higher being your soul is the higher being your brain the you in the present and your body your temple. I believe once you die you go to what a primitive sleep and with sleep comes dreams now when you die you will be faced with that self judgement phase but you are not judged by anyone but yourself. You are your own judge and jury since you are the only one who truly knows, so by your own judgement you could end up in heaven and hell as well as dreams of reicarnation. See when you die your spirit lives in that dream and spirits can and may be summoned by those in the living realm and the spirits may interact. Religion now days only conforns those who are welcoming whatever god they choose, i dont believe someone should dress up one day out of the week to worship. It just shows the false surface religion places on people that false sense of comfort. So when you are in the churched you will become a different person and you feel as if you have been cleansed but in reality you have been nothing but connected to another preacher who is only a tool in translating the gods word. I think karma affects destiny and fate because destiny is nothing but 2 points so they do not change but karma affects fate because there are many paths for one goal so the karma will change your path arcodingly and fate is nothing but the name of the road you have traveled in. so this was a basic summary of the last enormous post so for the lazy ones please read i will update more on the later findings ^_^ |
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[Jan. 26th, 2005|12:52 am] |
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| | Muse - hysteria | ] |
Post a memory of me in a comment.
It can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you. |
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| your aura is electrifying |
[Jan. 24th, 2005|11:44 pm] |
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| | saosin - i can tell | ] |
ive had a spiritual breakthrough im on the verge of establishing my own ideals and beliefs for once without being biased
beside that i wana find my dream rock
a talk wit shmoo helped me put my ideas into words its kinda long but please read anyone who cares about anything i say lol and leave a comment i still have much more to see/do/hear/learn so input would be nice
FASDFASFASD: wat do u think religion is
Fook Yu Stupid: not sure
FASDFASFASD: would u agree that
Fook Yu Stupid: guidelines on how to live ur life i guess
FASDFASFASD: it is sort of your ideals and wat you choose to follow
Fook Yu Stupid: well it's not MY ideas
FASDFASFASD: but u believe in them
FASDFASFASD: something you believe in whether u made it up or choose to follow it
Fook Yu Stupid: it's still not MY idea
Fook Yu Stupid: religion is a bunch of guidelines and rules and regualtions on how to live ur life better
FASDFASFASD: ok i can see that
FASDFASFASD: well im thinking of starting my own
FASDFASFASD: not necessarily starting it
FASDFASFASD: but accepting my beliefs and following them as my guidelines instead of the orthodox way
Fook Yu Stupid: ok
Fook Yu Stupid: that's basically what everyone does usless they WANT to be the orthodox way
FASDFASFASD: well tell me wat u think
FASDFASFASD: i believe in every god buddha the hindu god jesus christ quezacoatl etc. i think they all exist
FASDFASFASD: i believe*
FASDFASFASD: but i dont believe in worshipping in any one god
FASDFASFASD: i think that idolizing a figure is jsut restriction your own personal growth by looking up to a figure which cannot be attained
FASDFASFASD: so in essence you are your own higher being
Fook Yu Stupid: you are more of a New age type of person
FASDFASFASD: you soul being the higher being your brain being you as you live and your body your temple
FASDFASFASD: o
FASDFASFASD: well listen tell me wat u think
FASDFASFASD: i also believe that everything has a spirit
FASDFASFASD: and that when we die we just go into our eternal dream
Fook Yu Stupid: i'm telling you right now
Fook Yu Stupid: ou're a new age person
FASDFASFASD: lol wats that spose to mean?
Fook Yu Stupid: ur beliefs match that of the New Age movement
Fook Yu Stupid: look it up on the internet
FASDFASFASD: i know but wat do u mean by it
FASDFASFASD: do u believe in it? not? care for it?
Fook Yu Stupid: ur thoughts, and beliefs.. have already been thought of and already transformed into a religion called: the new age movement
FASDFASFASD: o..
FASDFASFASD: like exactly?
Fook Yu Stupid: practically
FASDFASFASD: wow
FASDFASFASD: well i didnt finish though
Fook Yu Stupid: ok
FASDFASFASD: so everything has a spirit
FASDFASFASD: and it never ceases to exist
FASDFASFASD: and when we die we just go into our eternal dream
FASDFASFASD: the dream world is where people can take roles of past lives or reincarnation
FASDFASFASD: as well as contact in the living world
FASDFASFASD: now this dream that you go into is where you will judge yourself
FASDFASFASD: when u die i think u judge yourself on whether you've been a good person
FASDFASFASD: and you will choose what form your dream will take shape of
FASDFASFASD: heaven hell nirvana etc.
FASDFASFASD: because only you know what you've done
FASDFASFASD: i also think karma once aquired can change your fate
FASDFASFASD: and to me fate is your path to destiny
FASDFASFASD: destiny is just a beginning and end point
FASDFASFASD: in between lies fate
FASDFASFASD: fate is like an intricate road and karma affects wat roads you take
FASDFASFASD: as well as other things
FASDFASFASD: i havent really figure it out myself yet
Fook Yu Stupid: hm
Fook Yu Stupid: that's what growing up is for
FASDFASFASD: so if you have bad karma your destiny will be the same but the road u take will be as according to
Fook Yu Stupid: hm
FASDFASFASD: but i just got all these jumbled thoughts
FASDFASFASD: and ur the only person i can really talk about religion too
FASDFASFASD: other ppl are more closed minded i tend to find
FASDFASFASD: and instead of discuss they preach
FASDFASFASD: im not a fan of preaching
Fook Yu Stupid: i'm not gonna preach to you
FASDFASFASD: i know
FASDFASFASD: i think that is the flaw with some religions today
Fook Yu Stupid: wll
Fook Yu Stupid: well
Fook Yu Stupid: i mean
Fook Yu Stupid: i could tell you what i believe and then we'd get into this huge discussion and argument
Fook Yu Stupid: and i dont realy want to do that
FASDFASFASD: well tell me
FASDFASFASD: im secure in what i believe in that i can see others point of view
FASDFASFASD: ive become rather open minded
Fook Yu Stupid: mmhm
Fook Yu Stupid: that's kool
FASDFASFASD: this all came about
FASDFASFASD: when i really thought wat religion was
FASDFASFASD: i found some things repulsive in a way
FASDFASFASD: why is it that one day out of the week when someone attends church they turn into a different person by dressing up and going for the 1 hour that week and to some it is by force
Fook Yu Stupid: i dunno
Fook Yu Stupid: i dont dress up
Fook Yu Stupid: the kids that go by force (cause they usually are kids) are going to get a lesson in the "right" way to live
Fook Yu Stupid: so hopefully they will spread the word onto their children
FASDFASFASD: ic
Fook Yu Stupid: you usually go because you want to go
Fook Yu Stupid: like.. i go to church on thursdays
Fook Yu Stupid: i used to go on thursdays and sundays because i woke up early enough
FASDFASFASD: lol im not a morning person
Fook Yu Stupid: i'd get up and get my mom to take me to church
Fook Yu Stupid: i dont wake up on time anymore so i dont really go
Fook Yu Stupid: but i mean... i was never forced to go to church
FASDFASFASD: not all ppl are as lucky i think
FASDFASFASD: but i do think tey should be exposed
FASDFASFASD: until the point where they can make their own choice of beliefs
Fook Yu Stupid: true
FASDFASFASD: well in ur opinion do u see the meaning behind my thinking
Fook Yu Stupid: sure
FASDFASFASD: do u think its right to idolize someone
Fook Yu Stupid: well i idolize Jesus Christ.. so.... in a way yea i do
FASDFASFASD: i dont agree with the view of making jesus a figure far beyond the reach of other it leaves no room for evolving broadening horizons it is like this is the truth and so shall be it
FASDFASFASD: but truth is a three sided bladed your truth their truth and the truth
Fook Yu Stupid: eh
Fook Yu Stupid: i guesss
FASDFASFASD: To truly find God, truth needs to be found independently from the opinions of others. The truth has to be found in our hearts.
--A.H.Almaas
Fook Yu Stupid: well
Fook Yu Stupid: i've gotten the opinion of others
Fook Yu Stupid: and in my heart i believe that Jesus is Lord.. no one forced me to think that way.. no one had to minister to me to get me to think the way i do
FASDFASFASD: well nothing is wrong with that
FASDFASFASD: but dont u think that god portrayed by the church is so untouchable that it is hard to connect?
FASDFASFASD: as a person to person
Fook Yu Stupid: nope
Fook Yu Stupid: you're proll thinking of the catholic church
Fook Yu Stupid: THAT church makes God seem untouchable
Fook Yu Stupid: because you have to go through so many confirmations and you have to talk to someone who will talk to god for you and all this stuff
FASDFASFASD: my family is all roman catholic
Fook Yu Stupid: which is why you think that he's untouchable
FASDFASFASD: but some ppl find comfort in that, and that i cant understand
FASDFASFASD: how is it that someone that is so untouchable can save us all
Fook Yu Stupid: hm
Fook Yu Stupid: true
FASDFASFASD: i mean dont get me wrong i do believe in him
FASDFASFASD: and i believe that he saves/saved many
FASDFASFASD: but that is in a spiritual way which the user found him within their hearts not the churchs altar which is wat gods spiritual support in my opinion
FASDFASFASD: which is wat gods r, spiritual support*
FASDFASFASD: u see wat i mean?
Fook Yu Stupid: i guess
FASDFASFASD: wat do ppl look for essentially in every religion or believe
FASDFASFASD: support
FASDFASFASD: right
FASDFASFASD: you cant be supported by someone untouchable
FASDFASFASD: your supported by someone you connect with
Fook Yu Stupid: yea
FASDFASFASD: i really like the existentialism point of view |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 24th, 2004|02:41 pm] |
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| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | no doubt - its my life | ] |
so our last show was this tuesday and well i thought it was raelly good it totally made up for arcadia but some drama came to ruin the night
so there was a junior prank and it was to put stuff on the seniors cars just like they had dont the previous weekend with the staff of helix marching band.
so the prank was done and it cause much drama now if the seniors can do it why cant the juniors i understand there was an issue with the amount used but if all the seniors are soo pissed off they r gona file charges why dont they find out everyone who did it instead of blaming the person who tried to do something memorable everyone put the entire blame on jennifer which is not fair there was more ppl in on it even if they didnt do it they brought materials as well so lets not assume one person went got all the supplies and fucked up everyones car im not just saying this cause jennifer is my friend and i will defend her but pressing charges???? as i recall jimmy did the same exact thing not less then a week ago as well tackling the marching tech some may call this prank immature which is pretty much calling all the seniors hypocrites its like u can do it to others but no one can do it to them there is a saying do onto others wat u want done upon urself so this could be called devine intervention im not also supporting the shaving cream but there should be a meeting to sort this out but also lets not assume jennifer did all this cause prior to this jennifer telles house was egged and that same night joe jamar and others were silly stringing cars and jsut cause of the coicidence they were assumed to be the culprits which was not true lets not judge wat we not know the full truth of |
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| what you waiting for? |
[Nov. 21st, 2004|08:41 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dj Marc De La Cruz - Chaos in the mix | ] |
im not necesseraly disapointed regarding yesterday but im not overjoyed either we got 2nd place in field only to be beat by esperanza and 3rd place in parade wit a 90.5 yay i feel we could have done so much better when the show started it didnt feel like it started and i feel it caught everyone by suprise i saw alot of mistakes and i contributed to some of them as well not to say the whole experience wasnt great it was just sad that we aren't going to see mr sperling bald =( another sad experience was the senior walk wow i dont think i cry really i have for some things but when i first got to the big circle around dustin i could feel my throat clinch and then as we were walking i shook hands wit frosh etc im suprised at how many ppl know me/ i know them lol there was some individual ppl who when i hugged i said something cause they meant something to me thats when it got hard to hold it in my eye burned from the tears/wiping them off wit my dirty gloves then shortly after we headed for home town buffet but we picked up a special passanged samantha ^_^ so me her and joe crammed into our seats =P at home town i didnt eat much but i like to say that mrs. tovar is the coolest band mom she seriously made me feel happy so thnx to u mrs. tovar after that we saw a couple funny sights but it was so short everything seemed rushed that day except after parade when we were blasting no doubt that was chill as fuck and then we got back to our buses and headed home now the bus rides are always the best part of band in my opinion lol so this one was no exception we had the boombox blasting techno and me yelling that the movie sucks my cock lol they still didnt turn it off but it didnt matter our bus driver was awesome i was standing up raving for a long ass time and he said nothing i was so happy and he also let us in the bus during awards i later apologized for the rucus but he said it was cool i got alot of really really really cool pictures i totally wana develop them anyways this post is really long so im gona end it now with a little quote "i still give the show 2 thumbs way up" some may know where thats from =P peace out |
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| tuesday night??? |
[Nov. 16th, 2004|10:43 pm] |
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| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | outkast - the whole world | ] |
so senior year has been great so far ^_^ today was our last tuesday night omg did it go by fast i feel like a freshmen getting yelled at by tyler for not knowing my music as a alto saxophone during wizard of oz i feel like a part of me is missing now does anyone feel the same? iono i guess i liked band all along i regret not enjoying it as much but i will in the near future peace out =/ |
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| la bamba |
[Nov. 12th, 2004|09:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | cranky | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Sublime - Smoke 2 joints | ] |
so lately everything has been about band wooohooo lol ya its fun i suppose i just dont like practicing but competetions r fun i cant believe senior year is just flying by like this we already are a quarter+ way through kinda crazy =/ anyways i gota go to band 10-1 eh sux peace out |
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